46 hours sober

[Altruist]

Now what?

[RuudVanNistelrooy]

Wait for 72 hours, that's when the cravings kick in.

[Busty Doll]

Good job, did you mom let you have the key back

[hitlersblackedwaifu]

keep going don't give up

[You're dead]

Quit completely

[Mr Looks]

Undeniable proof you can quit anytime

Time to cruise with moderation now

[RuudVanNistelrooy]

Undeniable proof you can quit anytime

Time to cruise with moderation now

Can't quit cold turkey, especially him who is an addict to cheap dopamine.

[Mr Looks]

Can't quit cold turkey, especially him who is an addict to cheap dopamine.

Indeed, relapse will be worse than ever

[Altruist]

Good job, did you mom let you have the key back

no. i didnt even ask for them. it's too early anyway and our schedules are such that she is always home when i leave and come home. also, i was too embarrassed/lazy to post it, but i came back wasted on thursday, she realized it, told me i can sleep through the night and to leave the place after that, and that i broke her heart by behaving like that while she is serving me like i m at a hotel. i fell asleep, woke up when alcohol stopped working and spent the entire night crying. "you broke my heart, my son", "this is the best life i can provide for you" and "this is a home, not a hotel" completely broke me. when i woke up in the morning, i went to her room, hugged her, started crying and said all this to her, begging her for another chance and telling her i cant go to work like that. she told me, with teary eyes, that i can come home. later on she told me she hopes i understand this really is the last time, and that the next time she even suspects i sniffed alcohol she ll throw my stuff out and call the police if i complain (for context, last week, when i also got visibly drunk, she criticized me, and because i was agitated from alcohol, i started yelling at her, telling her to stop yapping and slammed the door; she has a history with a violent alcoholic father and her husband, my dad, and she said she isnt going through that again and that problems with them started developing the exact same way she is now seeing unfolding with me). yesterday when i came back home, we talked relatively normally and i fixed half the stuff in the apartment that needed fixing for months, and cleaned it and did my chores in general (this is also an issue because when i drink, i just let go of everything and she basically has to be my servant; needless to emphasize, she is buying the groceries, cleaning, cooking, buying the stuff she sees i need in my room, even does physical labor around the apartment or in the basement, taking care of the bills etc). today i continued cleaning and generally started getting stuff done (work + dissertation + chores + not fucking drinking + even some exercising included), so the situation is normalized. still, this afternoon she repeated her warning and told me not to think i just got away with it and can go on with my old behavior in like a day. being in horrible relations with the closest members of your family, who did nothing bad to you and sacrificed a lot to give you enough opportunities feels fucking awful.

[alice in hell]

no. i didnt even ask for them. it's too early anyway and our schedules are such that she is always home when i leave and come home. also, i was too embarrassed/lazy to post it, but i came back wasted on thursday, she realized it, told me i can sleep through the night and to leave the place after that, and that i broke her heart by behaving like that while she is serving me like i m at a hotel. i fell asleep, woke up when alcohol stopped working and spent the entire night crying. "you broke my heart, my son", "this is the best life i can provide for you" and "this is a home, not a hotel" completely broke me. when i woke up in the morning, i went to her room, hugged her, started crying and said all this to her, begging her for another chance and telling her i cant go to work like that. she told me, with teary eyes, that i can come home. later on she told me she hopes i understand this really is the last time, and that the next time she even suspects i sniffed alcohol she ll throw my stuff out and call the police if i complain (for context, last week, when i also got visibly drunk, she criticized me, and because i was agitated from alcohol, i started yelling at her, telling her to stop yapping and slammed the door; she has a history with a violent alcoholic father and her husband, my dad, and she said she isnt going through that again and that problems with them started developing the exact same way she is now seeing unfolding with me). yesterday when i came back home, we talked relatively normally and i fixed half the stuff in the apartment that needed fixing for months, and cleaned it and did my chores in general (this is also an issue because when i drink, i just let go of everything and she basically has to be my servant; needless to emphasize, she is buying the groceries, cleaning, cooking, buying the stuff she sees i need in my room, even does physical labor around the apartment or in the basement, taking care of the bills etc). today i continued cleaning and generally started getting stuff done (work + dissertation + chores + not fucking drinking + even some exercising included), so the situation is normalized. still, this afternoon she repeated her warning and told me not to think i just got away with it and can go on with my old behavior in like a day. being in horrible relations with the closest members of your family, who did nothing bad to you and sacrificed a lot to give you enough opportunities feels fucking awful.

aw i hope it works out for you guys and you keep going with the improvements

its a hard thing for both sides

i believe in uuuuu

[Altruist]

right know i'm doing research on how to consume alcohol without it feeling in my breath. obviously drinking a litre or two is off the table, but i can't let go of those couple of chugs. that's the most noticeable part of my (moderate) drinking; due to my tolerance, it barely shows in my eyes or behavior, until i m really drunk, but breath is a different story and it can take half a glass of wine for someone to smell it.

[Altruist]

aw i hope it works out for you guys and you keep going with the improvements

its a hard thing for both sides

i believe in uuuuu

check my post above

[alice in hell]

NOOOOO my pet STOP

[Altruist]

If by "hardest to smell" you mean after consuming a moderate amount, there is no alcoholic beverage that reliably avoids detection on the breath.
A common misconception is that clear spirits such as Vodka are nearly odorless. They may have less of a distinctive aroma than beverages such as Whisky, Wine, or Beer, but alcohol itself produces a characteristic odor that can still be noticeable.
A few points:

• Dark spirits, wine, and beer often leave more recognizable aromas because of congeners, fermentation byproducts, and flavor compounds.
  
• Vodka is often perceived as the least distinctive-smelling alcoholic drink, but people can still detect alcohol on the breath after drinking it.
  
• The smell of alcohol comes not only from residue in the mouth but also from alcohol being exhaled from the lungs after it enters the bloodstream. Because of that, mints, coffee, gum, or brushing teeth do not reliably eliminate the odor.
  
• Individual factors (amount consumed, body size, metabolism, time elapsed, and the sensitivity of the observer) matter more than the specific beverage once alcohol is in the bloodstream.
  

So, if the question is purely comparative: vodka is often considered the least distinctive-smelling alcoholic beverage, but no alcoholic drink is truly difficult to detect on the breath after consumption.

[Altruist]

I'm gonna be alone on monday, till the evening. Means I can taste some by 14-15.