[Rage] I don't feel the light of life in me

[B00X]

no matter how much I sleep or "in the ideal range" my blood work is I feel exhausted, unmotivated, and unhappy. when do the clouds clear 

[You're dead]

I haven't felt it for almost a decade now

[Altruist]

same, but i'd put "complete emptiness" first, before those other bad feelings. i don't have to be the most energetic happy-go-lucky moron in the radius of 10 miles, but not perceiving everyone who is capable of getting some joy throughout the day without the need to inflate the experience with, for example, opiates, as an alien would be a good start. this state, specially when it lasts for years, turns you in such a cynical douchebag.

[Winyan Numpa]

i get it

[Iblameher]

It's on and off for me

[Iblameher]

Ritalin cured my depression

[hollow]

I'm a zombie

[Mr Looks]

You need the right banger to get you going

[B00X]

You need the right banger to get you going

music and other copes help for a bit but then its the same feeling of despair

[B00X]

Ritalin cured my depression

how much do you take. I took 40mg an hour ago and I do feel mentally clearer but it transitions to a feeling of emptiness quickly. But with ritalin of any stim when I go outside the anxiety completely overshadows any of its effects.

[Winyan Numpa]

gonna arrange/record sileblius op 76 no 2 to cope with my shitty life

[Iblameher]

how much do you take. I took 40mg an hour ago and I do feel mentally clearer but it transitions to a feeling of emptiness quickly. But with ritalin of any stim when I go outside the anxiety completely overshadows any of its effects.

20mg extended release

I weigh like 55kg and I seem to respond quite strongly to it. If I take more than 10mg ir or or 20mg XR my heart rate gets too racey