wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse

[Busty Doll]

don't see how to do this in practice.

You enroll driving school

[Altruist]

don't see how to do this in practice.

i thought about "opening up" to people around me and let the "secret" (the fact that i picked up on alcohol is probably way more obvious to those around me than i think) out, but i'm afraid i'd regret it soon after. ironically exactly that is probably the fear that drives most alcoholics/addicts over the point of no return

by opening up, i don't mean having a faggy emotional breakdown, but just openly stating i've been drinking to the extent that i have. including my doc and the psychiatrist, so that they can put it in my file and press me

decided to do this. i won't tell them i've been stuffing myself with 2l of wine per day for years, just that i've been drinking occasionally, with the purpose of falling asleep faster because the hypnotics stopped working. they can already read it from my blood test results and appearance anyway (bloat, obesity, red, puffy face), they are not retards

[Busty Doll]

How come no one can tell from the Stench of Wine around your aura at all times, that you are a drinker

[Altruist]

How come no one can tell from the Stench of Wine around your aura at all times, that you are a drinker

i can't tell how much i stink, and most people won't tell you that to your face anyway. specially when you are way above them in the social hierarchy

[n9wiff]

i can't tell how much i stink, and most people won't tell you that to your face anyway. specially when you are way above them in the social hierarchy

I've never met a heavy drinker that doesn't smell bad 

Like it's in the sweat itself

I wouldn't use the word "stink" because it's not as bad as legit just having shit BO or people with bad breath

It's just damp and slightly gross, they might judge or can easily tell that you are an alcoholic 

IIRC you drink 12.5 ABV approx wine so you should have a smell on you 

Try taking a strip of tissue paper and rub it against your underarms/arm-pit hard. Then smell that tissue.

[Altruist]

I've never met a heavy drinker that doesn't smell bad 

Like it's in the sweat itself

I wouldn't use the word "stink" because it's not as bad as legit just having shit BO or people with bad breath

It's just damp and slightly gross, they might judge or can easily tell that you are an alcoholic 

IIRC you drink 12.5 ABV approx wine so you should have a smell on you 

Try taking a strip of tissue paper and rub it against your underarms/arm-pit hard. Then smell that tissue.

yeah, the smell is definitely there, i've just been coping thinking it's not THAT noticeable

but even without the smell, my face gives it away. it's red and puffy, typical for drinkers. faces of people who are just fat look different