[Rage] I don't feel the light of life in me

[Altruist]

same, but i'd put "complete emptiness" first, before those other bad feelings. i don't have to be the most energetic happy-go-lucky moron in the radius of 10 miles, but not perceiving everyone who is capable of getting some joy throughout the day without the need to inflate the experience with, for example, opiates, as an alien would be a good start. this state, specially when it lasts for years, turns you in such a cynical douchebag.