I identify more with foreign people than whites

[Dreckssau]

It's to do with shame and guilt from mass propaganda. Since you're in Germany they will drag you to prison and induce heart attack for denying Holocaust or flying swastika. That is the level of indoctrination necessary to create a refugees welcome society

It seems to be resistant to this you have to be somewhat shameless and autistic

I agree with everything you're saying, but I never felt the guilt thing this much. I think every german is on some level affected by the self hatred going on. In a homogenous society without much technology or travel, you might have an outgroup preference, but it's a more abstract one.