I think i'm gonna rope out of boredom soon

[hollow]

try to channel the depression into poetry, painting etc. find a hobby and work on that as your therapy  

creating in general, doesn't matter how talentless you are or how bad it's gonna turn out, at least you've built your own island on this world. if you can't project your soul into the physical space it will only rot your body and mind.

Tried it many times, it doesn't work. I am not talented at all and not creative whatsoever