i feel like i betrayed myself

[Altruist]

Its literally chasing the dragon

Some of my fondest memories are just getting high and playing black ops 3 on Xbox. When I was like 20/21. If I did that now I wouldn't feel shit, but I'm still doing it while trying to convince myself I'm having fun 

Only solution Is to detox from all internet bs and drugs/alcohol/junk food. How to go about achieving that/what to replace it with is the challenge, but you know, and knowing is half the battle

legit. good post