my drinking is self-harm at this point

[Altruist]

I've had to quit, felt so nauseous all day yesterday I couldn't even keep water or coke zero down


Basically have already quit Clonazepam

Not even doing it for health reasons, the enjoyment I get from this crap anymore is just non existent. Basically spending money and putting in effort to binge drink, realize you feel no different, and then spend the next day feeling like an end stage aids patient

this. at least i used to get to experience an evening of thrill and euphoria before. now that that's gone, it's just being a stockholm syndrome victim