What being non NT means in my opinion

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So i went out tonight again to some family event. My family knows quite a lot of people so lots of people knew me there

I usually get welcomed warmly and even complimented sometimes

But there i am, shaking hands etc. and every single time it comes to chatting, even if it's just a few sentences i don't know what to say. I say cringe shit, or don't say anything at all and smile, or i'm about to say something, then stop and act like i didn't say anything

Then i just stand there completely out of place, not sure where to look. Whether i should look at people or just stare at the wall...

I am mentally not even in the state where i could care about girls for example cos i all think about is how i should act to appear "normal"

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Even afterwards i am still stressed from it and i didn't even stay long

[kathisterima]

Can't relate. When it comes to socializing, I just take over. I have very rivetting energy.

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Can't relate. When it comes to socializing, I just take over. I have very rivetting energy.

Mirin, what does rivetting mean?

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I think i'd legit have 0 problems with girls if i weren't so stuck up and autistic

[kathisterima]

Can't relate. When it comes to socializing, I just take over. I have very rivetting energy.

Mirin, what does rivetting mean?

Idk, stole it from my pet

[man with the nasally voice]

just stop caring

[lonelyjak]

So i went out tonight again to some family event. My family knows quite a lot of people so lots of people knew me there

I usually get welcomed warmly and even complimented sometimes

But there i am, shaking hands etc. and every single time it comes to chatting, even if it's just a few sentences i don't know what to say. I say cringe shit, or don't say anything at all and smile, or i'm about to say something, then stop and act like i didn't say anything

Then i just stand there completely out of place, not sure where to look. Whether i should look at people or just stare at the wall...

I am mentally not even in the state where i could care about girls for example cos i all think about is how i should act to appear "normal"

this happens to me sometimes, especially if im already stressed out about something beforehand. the irony is that I create awkward situations because I try to preempt not knowing what to say by talking about something random and it usually comes off as offputting. I would be more successful socially if I just didnt give a shit about people (im too empathetic)

Can't relate. When it comes to socializing, I just take over. I have very rivetting energy.

true I can see that. big forum admin chad energy