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wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - Altruist - 15-02-2025
obviously, i m not talking about my insults to insects on this forum, i ve always been abrasive to retards online - my behavior in real life is unprecedented and every conversation is a potential ugly verbal confrontation
if there was anything except air in my skull, i'd do the fucking obvious - 1. stopping pouring gallons of (white) wine into myself every day, 2. taking a couple of weeks off from the external world and people in general, excluding taking walks (not a jab) and jogging a little
of course that's not happening, at least not starting from today, because i went shopping (necessary stuff) and, as you can guess, came back with 2 l of 12% alcohol piss in my bag too
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - kathisterima - 15-02-2025
Jay Eff El at the unfaltering supernova detonating, reality bending meltdown we are witnessing from you
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - kathisterima - 15-02-2025
My advice: fill your time with something that doesn't allow you to drink at the same time.
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - Altruist - 15-02-2025
(15-02-2025, 04:28 PM)kathisterima Wrote: Jay Eff El at the unfaltering supernova detonating, reality bending meltdown we are witnessing from you
as i said, i ve always been an abrasive poster, specially when not a single normal user is around. the thing is it never had anything to do with my real life behavior, where i was perfectly chill and unphased and even cringed at neurotards
insane alcohol consumption over the course of the last 2-3 years obviously came to collect. the change is the most obvious in those internal monologues/"dialogues" where you are hypothetically arguing with someone, because my brain is just forcing me there subconsciously all the fucking time
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - n9wiff - 15-02-2025
Send a video of you pouring all that alcohol down the drain
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - Altruist - 15-02-2025
(15-02-2025, 04:29 PM)kathisterima Wrote: My advice: fill your time with something that doesn't allow you to drink at the same time.
don't see how to do this in practice.
i thought about "opening up" to people around me and let the "secret" (the fact that i picked up on alcohol is probably way more obvious to those around me than i think) out, but i'm afraid i'd regret it soon after. ironically exactly that is probably the fear that drives most alcoholics/addicts over the point of no return
by opening up, i don't mean having a faggy emotional breakdown, but just openly stating i've been drinking to the extent that i have. including my doc and the psychiatrist, so that they can put it in my file and press me
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - kathisterima - 15-02-2025
(15-02-2025, 04:35 PM)n9wiff Wrote: Send a video of you pouring all that alcohol down the drain
made me remember that video of josh walking while pouring the contents of his bladder down the floor of his moldy insect ridden basement
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - n9wiff - 15-02-2025
(15-02-2025, 04:38 PM)kathisterima Wrote: made me remember that video of josh walking while pouring the contents of his bladder down the floor of his moldy insect ridden basement
Sounds nasty but I want to see it now
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - kathisterima - 15-02-2025
(15-02-2025, 04:36 PM)victim Wrote: don't see how to do this in practice.
i thought about "opening up" to people around me and let the "secret" (the fact that i picked up on alcohol is probably way more obvious to those around me than i think) out, but i'm afraid i'd regret it soon after. probably the fear that drives most alcoholics/addicts over the point of no return
by opening up, i don't mean having a faggy emotional breakdown, but just openly stating i've been drinking to the extent that i have. including my doc and the psychiatrist, so that they can put it in my file and press me
that might be a good idea
but you might be subconsciously rejecting that because in theory quiting alcohol is extremely simple
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - Altruist - 15-02-2025
(15-02-2025, 04:42 PM)kathisterima Wrote: that might be a good idea
but you might be subconsciously rejecting that because in theory quiting alcohol is extremely simple
yeah
i think i fucked myself over with that period of insane rotting near the end of my studies (right around the time when i absolutely randomly stumbled upon lookism via the my law school uni forum - random 9gag thread - random reddit link in 9gag comments - random weirdo crying about his skull in some forever alone tier subreddit and linking lookism route). alcohol wasn't in play then, because i i could stuff myself with enough junk dopamine through the internet, television and ambien and klonopin/xanax.
after a couple of years, i realised i get angsty if i'm not consuming (whatever) 24/7.
then, when my tolerance to pills built up and the internet (forums) become less novel, i reached for alcohol. it's still insane to me that it's so cheap and easily accessible; it should be treated just as cocaine and heroin, if not harsher
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - Altruist - 15-02-2025
(15-02-2025, 04:35 PM)n9wiff Wrote: Send a video of you pouring all that alcohol down the drain
there's no way i'm wasting 4,89 EUR just like that
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - n9wiff - 15-02-2025
(15-02-2025, 04:57 PM)victim Wrote: there's no way i'm wasting 4,89 EUR just like that
"A revolution is not a dinner party"
Please just pour it down the drain
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - Altruist - 15-02-2025
(15-02-2025, 05:13 PM)n9wiff Wrote: "A revolution is not a dinner party"
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RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - n9wiff - 15-02-2025
Never showing an ounce of compassion to this fat fuck again
RE: wow. my all-encompassing meltdown is just getting worse - Altruist - 15-02-2025
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