how was your day?

[Alexander]

for me I woke up late after a nightmare. I lay in bed for hours and then got up and sat in a room for some hours. I made pictures on my laptop (meaningless doodles like squares over and over). then had dinner with family and felt horrible and they asked me why I stay up so late at night and criticised me

then I sat and browsed this site reading and rereading threads for a few hours. I ate some more food but it is all low quality and is making me ill. I think I am malnourished from vitamins. my body aches from bad diet and lack of activity

every day gets worse. I am disintegrating. I just sit down all day not moving and barely thinking. I just try to make time pass so im closer to death

now I am sitting on the laptop and waiting until I can become tired and sleep. I hope this ends soon but it will probably go on for many years

I wasn't able to gather energy to brush teeth or shower again and I feel so dirty. my eyeballs feel sticky in my head and my vision is dull. I want to cry. maybe I can listen to music for a little now

[Alexander]

well ill be waiting around to read your replies because I have nothing else to do. its good for fellow losers to discuss things because they can understand each others sorrows unlike normies

ill probably write it here each day when I can. no point making a new thread each day. just little updates I guess. updates from hell