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(Yesterday, 06:51 PM)alice in hell Wrote: yeah u need to do something more radical bc u just crumble + rationalize it
go to the doc he will give u meds
disulfiram will make u puke if u ever try to drink again adn u will develop an aversion to it
Yeah. my usual mo in these situations is adopting an empty "enough of this shit, this time i m 100% in" mindset, doing 2-3 lame tasks i ve been postponing and ...reverting to my old self
Idk about the doc thing because it stays in your record. plus, i have no idea what the standard procedure even is when a retard like me visits their gp and "opens up" about their rampant alcoholism
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(Yesterday, 06:59 PM)Altruist Wrote: Yeah. my usual mo in these situations is adopting an empty "enough of this shit, this time i m 100% in" mindset, doing 2-3 lame tasks i ve been postponing and ...reverting to my old self
Idk about the doc thing because it stays in your record. plus, i have no idea what the standard procedure even is when a retard like me visits their gp and "opens up" about his rampant alcoholism
better than liver failure going on ur record, just ask for it directly and say u cant stop idk
idk wtf else u can do really, u wont be able to drink at all then
each time u fuck up it seems like rock bottom gets lower + lower
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(Yesterday, 06:59 PM)Altruist Wrote: Yeah. my usual mo in these situations is adopting an empty "enough of this shit, this time i m 100% in" mindset, doing 2-3 lame tasks i ve been postponing and ...reverting to my old self
Idk about the doc thing because it stays in your record. plus, i have no idea what the standard procedure even is when a retard like me visits their gp and "opens up" about their rampant alcoholism
Are you still Clean As a Baby Ass
in terms of quitting alcohol 2 days ago
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(Yesterday, 07:02 PM)alice in hell Wrote: better than liver failure going on ur record, just ask for it directly and say u cant stop idk
idk wtf else u can do really, u wont be able to drink at all then
each time u fuck up it seems like rock bottom gets lower + lower
i mean sure. when i posted that, i thought: "wow, the retard's main concern here is that mention of alcoholism in his gp's med file might jeopardize his chances to become the main state attorney in 20 years". not just stupid and immature, it's even factually wrong and basically an imaginary "risk". jfl. when i think of this, it's even dumber - the alc/addict rep would even halo me considering i'm selling myself as the detached and perpetually troubled handsome genius like the one from my avatar. just jfl.
either way, by far my biggest problem here is how to recover my relationship with my mom. that feeling (100% justified) of me betraying her while she is and was both struggling with her, actual, problems and giving her all to make my life as comfy as pososible is eating my soul. without any exaggeration.
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(Yesterday, 07:17 PM)Altruist Wrote: i mean sure. when i posted that, i thought: "wow, the retard's main concern here is that mention of alcoholism in his gp's med file might jeopardize his chances to become the main state attorney in 20 years". not just stupid and immature, it's even factually wrong and basically an imaginary "risk". jfl.
either way, by far my biggest problem here is how to recover my relationship with my mom. that feeling (100% justified) of me betraying her while she is and was both struggling with her, actual, problems and giving her all to make my life as comfy as pososible is eating my soul. without any exaggeration.
it rly sucks when u care abt someone or something but u feel like u cant do anything better
im not sure but it seems like the biggest source of strife comes from the drinking, i mean theres probably issues underneath there but it seems like its exacerbating everything
i hope you feel better and it works out for you
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(Yesterday, 07:10 PM)Busty Doll Wrote: Are you still Clean As a Baby Ass
in terms of quitting alcohol 2 days ago
no, i went to check on my house yesterday evening and came back home fucking wasted. and i told you what happened on thursday.
today i'm alone at the apartment because my mom and her sister went shopping in ljubljana (ovdje je danas dan antifašističke borbe - državni praznik) and the first thing i did in the morning when i read my mom's message was going to the gas station and buying 4 vodkas. went for 3 more an hour ago.
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(Yesterday, 10:07 AM)You're dead Wrote: At least you're in a position with your money to not need a safety net He can't afford to buy a flat.
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(Yesterday, 07:19 PM)alice in hell Wrote: it rly sucks when u care abt someone or something but u feel like u cant do anything better
im not sure but it seems like the biggest source of strife comes from the drinking, i mean theres probably issues underneath there but it seems like its exacerbating everything
yeah. not that i was some perfect specimen before, but the most tense situations wiith my mom before i started drinking were, idk, her complaining to me because i didn't do that 1 chore she asked me to do, or suggesting i should take a shower because i smell really bad (not a joke, lmao). and yeah, this is different, specially because, without you even noticing, alcohol gradually reduces you to a fucking rat, with the bonus of you becoming explosive, unpredictable and irritable. since i became a judge, i realized 80 fucking + percent of guys who get charged with something "accidentally" have a history of addiction to alcohol and/or drugs.
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thanks
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(Yesterday, 02:48 PM)alice in hell Wrote: start taking disulfiram at this point legit
become an asian flush phenotype
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(Yesterday, 07:21 PM)Altruist Wrote: no, i went to check on my house yesterday evening and came back home fucking wasted. and i told you what happened on thursday.
today i'm alone at the apartment because my mom and her sister went shopping in ljubljana (ovdje je danas dan antifašističke borbe - državni praznik) and the first thing i did in the morning when i read my mom's message was going to the gas station and buying 4 vodkas. went for 3 more an hour ago.
Doesn't vodka strike you as a worse drink than wine
Maybe you shoulda stuck to your routine 4 liters of huwine a day
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(Yesterday, 06:51 PM)alice in hell Wrote: disulfiram will make u puke if u ever try to drink again adn u will develop an aversion to it
(Yesterday, 07:31 PM)alien sex Wrote: legit
become an asian flush phenotype
right now, i know one thing for sure - i have to reach out to someone, not just regarding treating my alcoholism, but the entire situation.
just remembered my psychiatrist is in top 10 addiction treating specialists in the country and that it would be smartest that i do it with her. the funny thing is i have 5 of those 10 in my phone because i call them as court experts whenever i need them to assess the inductee (fucking lol at common law terminology)
might actually call her tomorrow.
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(Yesterday, 07:32 PM)Busty Doll Wrote: Doesn't vodka strike you as a worse drink than wine
Maybe you shoulda stuck to your routine 4 liters of huwine a day
see other thread. and i was drinking wine with the intent to eventually get wasted anyway.
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(Yesterday, 08:30 PM)alice in hell Wrote: email her now tbh
was going to, but i m drunk, and i know i ll regret the way i worded it tomorrow morning (experience). i ll do it tomorrow from work or call her
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