i m jealous of you guys

[Altruist]

i know you are all miserable, depressed and hopeless, but you all seem much more balanced than me

i wish i could have that (again, because i ve been like that when i joined lookism - just boring incel nerd rotting)

this rollercoaster of rage, delirium, fury, euphoria and hallucinating mixed up with despair when i run out of substances to abuse is unbearable

[Winyan Numpa]

yeh somehow i managed to complete two bachelors while maintaining employment and doing like an hour of cardio everyday

[Altruist]

i m spending the evening watching the game, so it's slightly more normal than my recent ones (i m still on 12 mg of klonopin, but that's like a slice of ham for me at this point)

i feel bad and humbled because i lashed out and yelled at my mom when she noticed i came back from outside drunk (i drank after getting a haircut, but i went overboard so it was blatantly obvious). it's not her fucking fault that i m a retard, she shouldnt have to deal with my addict rage, specially considering she's doing 99% of the chores around the apartment while i lay down and rot like an animal. she deserved better.

[Winyan Numpa]

i m spending the evening watching the game, so it's slightly more normal than my recent ones (i m still on 12 mg of klonopin, but that's like a slice of ham for me at this point)

i feel bad and humbled because i lashed out and yelled at my mom when she noticed i came back from outside drunk (i drank after getting a haircut, but i went overboard). it's not her fucking fault that i m a retard, she shouldnt have to deal with my addict rage.

wheres ur dad

[hitlersblackedwaifu]

idk, sounds fun to me

[Altruist]

wheres ur dad

died a couple of years ago, lung cancer

[Winyan Numpa]

died a couple of years ago

im sorry for your loss

[Altruist]

im sorry for your loss

it wasnt much of a tragedy, we werent too close. the brutal thing is his life went downhill exactly like mine seems to. same age range, same vices, everything

[Winyan Numpa]

it wasnt much of a tragedy, we werent too close. the brutal thing is his life went downhill exactly like mine seems to. same age range, same vices, everything

ah fuck thats so brutal 

i hope you find a life that actually makes u happy eventually

[Altruist]

ah fuck thats so brutal 

i hope you find a life that actually makes u happy eventually

the recipe is simple. 

1. ASS
2. #1 impact factor in my field

thanks, ofc

[bluerose]

wow i feel really sad for u, but do u think u deserve it to a large degree cuz ur a bad person, there's only so much manchild cope and "my poor confused highly gifted inner child made me do it" before it hits a wall, and dat wall is ur inability to be nice to anyone else, like ur holding on to ur misery and narcissism as the core of ur "genius", but mby degrading everyone all da time isn't what made u special in da first place, mby it's ur sickness, mby ur off the rails and genuinely in need of a non-functioning autism diagnosis as an adult.

[bluerose]

u ass

[Altruist]

wow i feel really sad for u, but do u think u deserve it to a large degree cuz ur a bad person, there's only so much manchild cope and "my poor confused highly gifted inner child made me do it" before it hits a wall, and dat wall is ur inability to be nice to anyone else, like ur holding on to ur misery and narcissism as the core of ur "genius", but mby degrading everyone all da time isn't what made u special in da first place, mby it's ur sickness, mby ur off the rails and genuinely in need of a non-functioning autism diagnosis as an adult.

there is some truth to this, but i'm just too intellectually superior to even pretend retards are my equals

[Winyan Numpa]

how old r u now

[Altruist]

how old r u now

32 soon