i understand how old people become weird

[MVP]

they get tired of old normal thoughts

i think differently than at 18

im 36

[hitlersblackedwaifu]

pretty much

first you carry the ambitions of young self, calculations you made back in the day

then reality comes and kills you, you try again and again but it's to no avail

you are humbled, like an energetic dog beaten into being still and silent

[hitlersblackedwaifu]

hitler wanted to be a painter, capture the beauty of the world

then he realized this world is very, very bad place, and swore to destroy it

[hitlersblackedwaifu]

I'm often reminded of this movie dialogue


Van Cleef: It's a small world.

Kinski: Yes, and very,very bad.

[Ropium]

hitler wanted to be a painter, capture the beauty of the world

then he realized this world is very, very bad place, and swore to destroy it

He wanted to protect the beauty in the world by destroying the ugly

[Ropium]

I wouldn't say my thoughts were stranger if anything they've become more set and it takes work to consciously be more open minded to racism xenophobia, especially if you live through the civil rights and 80s everyone's a winner inclusion propaganda. It's so much worse today which in a.aense.makes it easier because it's more obvious and ham fisted. The subtlety was how the subversives used to get you.

Your mind is litrally constantly battling entropy both mentally and physically. That's why to be racist you need to be high IQ and have a lot of brainpower