Suicide is an incredibly rational thing to do

[MVP]

I think my time has come, but i lack the means to suicide, if i had a shotgun, i would shoot myself in the head and end it once and for all. 

I have proven for myself sufficiently that things are impossible for me. I see no perspective.

[MVP]

https://www.everydayhealth.com/emotional-health/reasons-suicide-is-on-the-rise-in-the-black-community-according-to-a-psychiatrist/