[Rage] girl at pharmacy who smiles at me and always greets me makes me by my name

[prince of shitskins]

she looks hapa/french?? i cant tell because she wears a face mask, but it doesn't really matter

this pharmacy gets a lot of traffic, so how the fuck do they remember my name? just gossip?

her eyes are enchanting and just her handing me my bag of narcotics that i consume in a day (it's supposed to last a month) fills me with a sense melancholy and dread

it's extremely demoralizing knowing that there's nothing in my power i could do to get  a girl like that. i think i'm just going to quit everything and never visit that store  ever again, because deep down, know they're repulsed.... and a part of me wishes they would just cut the act

i'll forget about them soon enough, i suppose