09-03-2023, 04:37 PM
I never really knew exactly what I wanted in life since I was a kid. I had some vague attraction towards recognition or fame, but at the same time, even then, knew it wouldn't bring my any real happiness. I also sometimes had a vague attraction to isolation and dedicating myself to knowledge but again ultimately knew this couldn't lead to happiness.
Now that I'm a bit older I've began to kill my pride a bit and gain some wisdom. I really don't care about any of these typical idealistic things. All I really want long term is a family.
Ideally, I'd want a wife, and 2 daughters (with only 1 child the household would still feel empty to me). No sons. People these days say "anything but a daughter" just because they're whores, but at least they're nice to be around. I don't care if they're manipulative, or if they love drama, or whatever; I really don't care. I'm completely finished when it comes to dealing with men. They are arrogant, weak, pathetic, cold, and self-pitying. The weakness of men disgusts me, and through all their weakness, they have the audacity to be rude and cold. At least women have the capacity for warmth and kindness, and I've realized that this is the most important and honourable trait in humans.
I just want to have a homey, calm, family life that includes a wife and 2 daughters. And maybe a dog or something. Just the most basic western life style and with no men close to me. This is ideal.
I think this is unrealistic for me though, I don't know if I'm built to have human connections. Idk.
Now that I'm a bit older I've began to kill my pride a bit and gain some wisdom. I really don't care about any of these typical idealistic things. All I really want long term is a family.
Ideally, I'd want a wife, and 2 daughters (with only 1 child the household would still feel empty to me). No sons. People these days say "anything but a daughter" just because they're whores, but at least they're nice to be around. I don't care if they're manipulative, or if they love drama, or whatever; I really don't care. I'm completely finished when it comes to dealing with men. They are arrogant, weak, pathetic, cold, and self-pitying. The weakness of men disgusts me, and through all their weakness, they have the audacity to be rude and cold. At least women have the capacity for warmth and kindness, and I've realized that this is the most important and honourable trait in humans.
I just want to have a homey, calm, family life that includes a wife and 2 daughters. And maybe a dog or something. Just the most basic western life style and with no men close to me. This is ideal.
I think this is unrealistic for me though, I don't know if I'm built to have human connections. Idk.
"Show me your looks and I'll show you your future"
