"you dont exist for me anymore"

[Altruist]

it rly sucks when u care abt someone or something but u feel like u cant do anything better

im not sure but it seems like the biggest source of strife comes from the drinking, i mean theres probably issues underneath there but it seems like its exacerbating everything

yeah. not that i was some perfect specimen before, but the most tense situations wiith my mom before i started drinking were, idk, her complaining to me because i didn't do that 1 chore she asked me to do, or suggesting i should take a shower because i smell really bad (not a joke, lmao). and yeah, this is different, specially because, without you even noticing, alcohol gradually reduces you to a fucking rat, with the bonus of you becoming explosive, unpredictable and irritable. since i became a judge, i realized 80 fucking + percent of guys who get charged with something "accidentally" have a history of addiction to alcohol and/or drugs.

i hope you feel better and it works out for you

thanks