"you dont exist for me anymore"

[alice in hell]

i mean sure. when i posted that, i thought: "wow, the retard's main concern here is that mention of alcoholism in his gp's med file might jeopardize his chances to become the main state attorney in 20 years". not just stupid and immature, it's even factually wrong and basically an imaginary "risk". jfl.

either way, by far my biggest problem here is how to recover my relationship with my mom. that feeling (100% justified) of me betraying her while she is and was both struggling with her, actual, problems and giving her all to make my life as comfy as pososible is eating my soul. without any exaggeration.

it rly sucks when u care abt someone or something but u feel like u cant do anything better

im not sure but it seems like the biggest source of strife comes from the drinking, i mean theres probably issues underneath there but it seems like its exacerbating everything

i hope you feel better and it works out for you