"you dont exist for me anymore"

[Altruist]

better than liver failure going on ur record, just ask for it directly and say u cant stop idk

idk wtf else u can do really, u wont be able to drink at all then

each time u fuck up it seems like rock bottom gets lower + lower

i mean sure. when i posted that, i thought: "wow, the retard's main concern here is that mention of alcoholism in his gp's med file might jeopardize his chances to become the main state attorney in 20 years". not just stupid and immature, it's even factually wrong and basically an imaginary "risk". jfl. when i think of this, it's even dumber - the alc/addict rep would even halo me considering i'm selling myself as the detached and perpetually troubled handsome genius like the one from my avatar. just jfl.

either way, by far my biggest problem here is how to recover my relationship with my mom. that feeling (100% justified) of me betraying her while she is and was both struggling with her, actual, problems and giving her all to make my life as comfy as pososible is eating my soul. without any exaggeration.