"you dont exist for me anymore"

[Altruist]

well the obvious answer is to show that you are serious about changing

if u start putting effort in it for some time and she sees it, then u can try talking to your mom

obviously it's not realistic that you will cut drinking cold turkey, so find a better way of hiding it because if you screw up again there will be no trust left

the problem is i did this 10+ times by now (and this is my estimate, so, considering how delusional we are about ourselves, it's probably the 50th time to her)