"you dont exist for me anymore"

[Altruist]

well the obvious answer is to show that you are serious about changing

if u start putting effort in it for some time and she sees it, then u can try talking to your mom

obviously it's not realistic that you will cut drinking cold turkey, so find a better way of hiding it because if you screw up again there will be no trust left

do you think it's possible to soften her if i spend these next 15 days behaving completely differently (not just talking about not drinking, but about acting like a fucking adult and a 1/2 participant of our household)?