"you dont exist for me anymore"

[Altruist]

i mean, just observing her behavior on the "micro-level" and comparing it to my contributions to this household makes me legit cry now. 

from her constantly trying to improve the home aesthetically and functionally, buying stuff for me when she realizes i need something but knows i m too much of a lazy loser to get it myself, giving her best in every aspect of life because that's what mentally healthy people do ... to me acting, well the way i'm describing it in my posts here. needless to say, she refuses to take money from me and just live off my assets when she could, deservedly so, spend the rest of her life like fucking lebron james. after a lifetime of struggle and horrible tragedies at that, while the worst thing that's ever happened to me was 2 weeks without internet connection in 2016.