i m jealous of you guys

[Altruist]

i m spending the evening watching the game, so it's slightly more normal than my recent ones (i m still on 12 mg of klonopin, but that's like a slice of ham for me at this point)

i feel bad and humbled because i lashed out and yelled at my mom when she noticed i came back from outside drunk (i drank after getting a haircut, but i went overboard so it was blatantly obvious). it's not her fucking fault that i m a retard, she shouldnt have to deal with my addict rage, specially considering she's doing 99% of the chores around the apartment while i lay down and rot like an animal. she deserved better.