guess how i feel from 1 to 10

[You're dead]

i really wish i was one of those morons who experience a random meaningless events and it genuinely rewires their identity because some retarded delusion and permanent affect arise from it. and this "ability" isn't even correlated with intelligence from my experience, i know a couple of normal, functional, even smart guys who had that happen to them. the specific path is mostly obsession with god, though, which is just narcissism for peasants.

Its some weird combination of narcissism + identity crisis + latent schizophrenia 

This is seriously 98% of people me included tbh. They think the universe is sending them messages, it's just the society we have now is unprecedented so it manifests in weird ways