i wish i could have frozen my life when i was 25 and keep reliving the typical day forever

[Cohen In Hell]

20 for me was the peak of my drug use. When weed still did something I was doing godmix thrice a week

Past that point I've been mostly miserable up until now. Drugs haven't helped.

Once you age you lose it, you could retire now and live those days on repeat but it would feel like you're in purgatory. 


I've found that the void calls once you get old, and cheap fulfilment feels like cheap fulfilment. Not sure if it's biological like your brain felling you to reproduce or something, but I ignore it anyway. I know none of this matters and I'm not reproducing