do you legitimately think about suicide frequently

[aklifaal]

there were probably at least 8 years straight where i contemplated suicide multiple times a day
i never really strongly considered it, but the idea of it and even the desire for it was always there
i never processed until now that is gone

kind of funny, it was a similar thing for hairloss
when i came to terms with my hairloss being noticeable (it was never horrendous) it was pretty much all i thought about
every day in the mirror i would look at my hairline and be filled with the most terrible sense of dread and despair
i did hop on fin and my hair maybe improved a tiny bit but nothing crazy, at least it stopped getting worse
nowadays i still look at my hair in the mirror every morning but im no longer filled with the same dread despite it not really having improved

i still don’t consider myself a particularly happy person but it is nice to at least be a bit more at peace

don't let your guard down, it can emerge again in an instant

all it takes is one bad day