Nathaniel Hawthorne was rotting hard - I understand why Legit Theory made him his avi

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Hawthorne wrote in the comparative obscurity of what he called his "owl's nest" in the family home. As he looked back on this period of his life, he wrote: "I have not lived, but only dreamed about living."

Hawthorne's own life was characterized by lengthy periods
of seclusion as well as by daily times of solitude as a part of
his routine. Herbert Gorman said that Hawthorne's college years—
that time of life when people are generally most outgoing—"were
but an interim of tentative associations between two silences"
(33). The first silence to which Gorman refers was the atmosphere
of seclusion which some critics believe seemed to permeate the
household into which Hawthorne was born. The second silence
Gorman mentions probably was the most famous one—the ten years
after college that Hawthorne willingly spent in at least semiseclusion.
Understandably, Hawthorne's son, Julian, was among the
people who have puzzled over this particular chosen solitude.
He wrote:
But here was a young man, brimming over with physical
health and strength; endowed (by nature, at all
events) with a strong social instinct; with a mind
daring, penetrating, and independent; possessing a
face and figure of striking beauty and manly grace;
gifted with a stubborn will, and prone, upon occasion,
to outbursts of appalling wrath;—in a word, a man
fitted in every way to win and use the world, to have
his own way, to live throughout the full extent of
his keen senses and great faculties;—and yet we
find this young engine of all possibilities and
energies content (so far as appears) to sit quietly
down in a meditative solitude, and spend all those
years when a man's blood run warmest in his veins
in musing over the theories and s3nnbols and life,
and in writing cool and subtle little parables
apposite to his meditations. (Hawthorne, Julian
1:82-83)