so annoying when neighbors/relatives invite me to go out with them/visit their place

[numb digger]

yeah that's the reason they invite me too, they think poor guy is all alone let me help him

as if their intention is not dead obvious and it will not make you feel worse and not better

I've learned that I need to get use to a life of total isolation. I'm either a jester or a prop for people to say "hey, look at the wholesome autist"

The reality is I'm just a failed retarded asshole, and I'm never interacting with people as if they're my peer. It's just one sided scorn and pity.

Getting used to complete isolation is hard but it's necessary