i m never gonna make it

[Altruist]

i cant resist the temptation of cheap, easily accessible "feel good" emotions alcohol, food and other consoomer shit provide

i could have a 10 x more dignified and fulfilling life if only i put the fork and the bottle down, and i still cant get myself to do it. 

every single day, when it comes to making that "same old shit again or a change, no matter how incremental" decision, i go for the same old shit

so fucking sad.