I sob to myself in the dark at least once a day now

[I Already Know I'm Ugly]

Im not gonna pretend I know how it is but yea, I don't doubt it

Let me help you to understand.

Basically imagine if everywhere you go, on top of dealing with any other afflictions like ugliness, being sub 6’3, etc, you now have a new nigger status which makes everyone view you as stupid/insentient, prone to criminal activities, and “unclean” in the sense that you are viewed as more of a lesser life form rather than being a strange looking human. It will be the first thing people go to when they insult you. You will be targeted not only by other races, but by your own race because blacks/shitskins generally are their own worst enemies. You will live in a world that promotes these views of a beautiful and idealized life that you simply could never have because you were never really a human in the first place. So not only is reality an unending source of pain, your own dreams will be as well. It is a life as dark as your skin.