today i realized, i dont want to be good at talking, because it pisses people off if u talk a lot, and in long sentences

[MVP]

haha

its like my weaknesses are not weaknesses, they are strenghts

its the same like i dont want a good memory, i have a bad one, if i had good one i would remember all the painful memories better, and in case of working memory , i would remember bullshit better, it wouldnt be filtered out well and it would be stuck in my mind like an earworm etc

i dont want to be able to pay attention well, cuz then the bullshit ppl talk would interest me, its like i cannot pay attention well cuz the bullshit ppl talk doesnt interest me. nah ok, my attention is not that bad anyway

so my weaknesses are actually not weaknesses at all