Nothing more pretentious than playing chess

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I'm not very fond of chess either, but it is mostly because I feel like improving demands such a major effort where the game stops being fun. Also if your goal is to improve then every setback is going to frustrate you a lot. It's overall not fun.

Coincidentally I started playing chess again a few days ago. Let me explain my struggle further:

Last time I quit my blitz rating was 1850. After playing a few games my rating naturally pummeled to 1500. Now with some effort and memory coming back I managed to reach 1650. 

Maybe if I spend the next month training I will get back my old set of skills/knowledge, but by then I'll be bored and quit the game already.

So for a competitive freak like myself it is not going to be fun playing chess past the point I've already reached.

It's a very similar experience to me studying for a class only to forget all the information I have learned 1 week after. Am I too retarded? That might be it tbh.

hitting >2050 elo on lichess presupposes lots of theoretical knowledge, opening lines, midgame strategies etc. the learning curve doesnt justify the effort. Fischer proposed chess 960 which would be way more fun since the pieces are random, I think well see it go mainstream by 2030