it seems reality is cursed for me in the weirdest ways

[ΛΟΓΟΣ]

this is a pattern repeating across all areas of my life and they are there since childhood, because of that ive been in a sleep paralysis, but awake, since ever. after all, if things are that hard to be achieved, and only for me, since normies seems to have great luck, then it makes no sense for myself to try to climb the ladder, neetdom then is the only option