[Black Pill] why do i even bother

[Altruist]

whats the point of trying to overcome the slump. its not like a binary switch it takes a crazy amount of research money time and effort just for maintenance, aka "upkeep" to avoid falling back to the slump which is my flesh prisons default state. not to mention i have other stressors in my everyday life taking up time and effort already like failing school and my dogshit workplace.

well put, tbh