i felt better when i was rotting

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sad and daydreaming about becoming a lifemaxxed cuckold 24/7, but i felt purer and like i was leaving meaningfully, even though taking out the garbage was the peak of my daily activity

weird

i think the huge part of that counterintuitively positive sentiment is knowing or believing you COULD improve your life if you wanted to; it's probably horror on earth and suicide-thoughts-inducing if you are an S tier loser/weirdo like honest or dolly