drunk and can't stop thinking of my oneitis

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don't know her number, don't know what she looks like now, don't know what she's even up to now 
she used to be my childhood fren, we grew up together and we went to the same kindergarten and elementary school and shit
her parents and mine used to be friends 
don't know when will i see her again 
having an oneitis like this is the worst shit ever. srs. at least when you're close to your oneitis and can interact with her it's not bad like this

i dont have an oneitis since early high school tbh
she was beautiful (blue eyed pale paraguayan gorl) but i was too self-absorbed. felt some idealized allure by her, some self-doubt about me in relation to her and the mutuality of our feelings, but not enough to bleed out sentimentally like this