why am i agitated and miserable after only 2 days of NEETing?

[kathisterima]

that's all written by me. lower half of the stack on the right is handwritten/contains sketches, the rest is typed on a laptop

How do you go through notes? Like you I have tons of handwritten notes, and although the process of writing them down serves well as a learning tool, I find it difficult going through them again. Idk, my asymmetrical handwritting annoys me, the blurry pencil, parts ive omitted for the benefit of saving time/focusing on important parts, it becomes hard to brush up.