damn

[prince of shitskins]

if you can't do anything about your lungs it'd be smart to at least stop destroying the rest of your body

didnt you say you have a doctor appointment for your lungs

why do even bother if you are addicted to pills and alcohol

correct, but the lung infections make life not worth living

yes, two weeks

because the infections are physically painful and the options are treat the infections or suicide. also, i literally haven't picked up my clonazepam prescription in almost 2 months 

not drinking anymore regardless because my body cant take it, but it's extremely annoying when people try and reprimand me for not doing enough to "help myself" like this has gone on for 5 years and it's treatable. tried many different things to help myself, nothing has worked. what did work (one time) was some iv antibiotics, could hold my breath for 3 minutes the next morning after feeling like i was choking the previous night. went through a period of spending all my benefit money on antibiotics from an online pharmacy.... even did a 6 month course of anti fungal drugs (extremely hard on the liver)

i wish i was making this shit up. it's beyond a living hell and my body suddenly giving out would be a fucking blessing at this point