I really need to socialise more

[Honest]

if i don't change something, i have a feeling that i might end up as a 36 year old, depressive schizoid, alcoholic pill-addict, with a BMI over 40, who spends 8 hours per day constructing an elaborate larp as a multimillionaire lawyer (who doesnt drive btw, cos he's "not interested in cars") to impress indian teenagers on obscure incel forums, despite having accidentally doxed myself (just 160 IQ lawyer things) and subsequently exposed that i live with my elderly mother in a grimy, little, cheap apartment and work at a low-paying deadend job, but nevertheless continuing my fantasy because ive devoted almost a decade of my life and over a hundred thousand posts to my larp 

for related reading, see sunk-cost fallacy