my drinking is self-harm at this point

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the only tangible consequences of it are mild burning everywhere between my neck and my pubic area, constant nausea, shits that feel and look like i'm days away from seeing blood in them, drastic reduction of my cognitive abilities and constant weight gain

pros? buzz and that feeling of invincibility and excitement/optimism about the future? nope, 404 for months now

time to stop, tbh