What is age of failure

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idk

i figured out when i was a kid that my life was gonna be a write off

*not inheriting anything
*not academically smart enough to earn a good degree
*no innate talent

and that a decade ago

my life is a super duper write off now, i'm a wrecked car that's just sitting in the crusher waiting for the guy to press the button

Damn that´s brutal. In terms of mental pain your on a level i can barely comprehend. Atleast i have a few hours a day where i don´t feel like complete garbage. Once you get burnout you also forget how bad you felt in the past and when the last time was where you felt normal. I´m pretty much suicidal for 11 years but only now do i feel no more happiness at all.