update on my relationship with my mom

[Altruist]

- she is not talking to me
- she did make me lunch and coffee for when i come home from work
- whenever i ask her something, she replies with 1-2 words and only if she has to (if it's some banal question from which it's obvious i m just trying to fix the situation, she completely ignores me)

[Altruist]

she just went out of the apartment (to kaufland, to take a bike ride/walk or to visit her sister). 

this means i can try and buy some wine for today's match and come back fast, which is amazing.

the problem is, if i come back and she catches me, it 99.999% means i m spending the next couple of weeks on my own (i have a house to sleep in, but it's completely empty, i couldnt bother getting the installations and basic furniture done)

[Altruist]

i think i should go immediately and hurry the fuck up or just do nothing and spend the night pretending i m hyped about fucking football

[Altruist]

gonna go buy some. the store is 200 m away. if you dont see my posts in the next couple of days, you know what happened.

[Altruist]

i bet this is exactly how american soldiers felt before normandy landings

[Winyan Numpa]

go home retard

[Dreckssau]

Was your mom meek or domineering?

[Altruist]

go home retard

what do you mean?

Was your mom meek or domineering?

both. im revealing too much now, but let's say she is a professional in pedagogy/psychology/treating and raising kids, so she knows none of the extremes works.

she divorced from my father early, so, as much as i hate it, i think there is truth to the claim that males raised by moms end up being little bitches like myself. 

but then again, knowing my father, if they stayed together/i got raised by both of them equally, the only difference is i'd now be an addict who, instead of doing numale stuff like posting on forums and verbally DESTROYING anglo cretins like honest, fulfills his psychological tendencies by drinking outside, taking drugs and, very likely, ending up in incidents and fights all the time, including the possibility of incarceration. my professional status would also be in the shitter, i'd probably be working as a delivery guy, unemployed or whatever honest's reality is.

[Altruist]

update: went to the store, bought a bottle and came back as fast as i could. she still didnt come back.

me till tomorrow morning when (if) i manage to get rid of the bottle outside:

[Altruist]

honestly, i think a part of me even wants this to escalate and to end up "the bad way" for me. spending most of your adult life in status quo, which is my case, is so pathetic and frustrating.

[Winyan Numpa]

u need to become exceptional and eminent b4 u crash and burn so its poetic instead of just another psychotic mf

[Altruist]

u need to become exceptional and eminent b4 u crash and burn so its poetic instead of just another psychotic mf

not to be repetitive and sound delusional, but ... "become"? read more of my posts, tbh.

but yeah, it would still be said if i stopped at this just because i m an impulsive obese alc and a goypill swallower. 

me being accomplished already is way different, at least from my perception of my level of self-actualization, than me pulling my MO off and getting it published (it would still read as random boring nerd scribble to virtually all peasants, though, but that's funny because that same scribble would change, probably for the better, their lives fucking substantially)

[Winyan Numpa]

not to be repetitive and sound delusional, but ... "become"? read more of my posts, tbh.

but yeah, it would still be said if i stopped at this just because i m an impulsive obese alc and a goypill swallower. 

me being accomplished already is way different, at least from my perception of my level of self-actualization, than me pulling my MO off and getting it published (it would still read as random boring nerd scribble to virtually all peasants, though, but that's funny because that same scribble would change, probably for the better, their lives fucking substantially)

u need to watch black swan

[Altruist]

u need to watch black swan

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0947798/

this? really?

[Winyan Numpa]

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0947798/

this? really?

yeh