im not even an NPC

[Alexander]

you hear about main characters, NPCs...  but im not even an NPC.

 im below that. 

im just a pixel. or some invisible mechanical force that does nothing in the game. I exist outside of the game boundaries, in the void below the level. 

worthless, invisible, powerless

[Blau]

At least you don't have to play the game...

[An Infinity Of Little Hours]

Why can't you gain back any power in your life? What is holding you back from at least being a villager in a forgotten town in Skryim?