I’m not gonna be good at anything. I won’t be loved. I won’t find any happiness or deep insights to the world.

[I Already Know I'm Ugly]

and that’s ok. 
I was born to be an NPC and there was nothing I could do about that

[Ursa Major]

love between a man and a woman isnt a thing, its more of a 'passion,' love is a thing when we consider (assuming normie ofc) mothers and their children - the issue nowadays is precisely that men might expect the unconditional and everlasting love and bond of a mother in other woman 

well anyway, if you feel rejected in life, then its better not to mourn this rejection, and to not seek integration, but embrace in your indifference and death to the world - search 'death to the world' here ive posted some orthodox quotes that are definitely true

[Ursa Major]

maybe i worded it wrong and smtimes generalizing too hard can be too dramatic, anyway maybe love is possible (not smth i experienced anyway) but well aside the love of a mother for her child, maybe its possible to 'learn to love' instead of falling into loving someone - which is why marriages, divorce not being a thing and punishments for whorish behavior is important, because at some point those people will be civilized into truly loving each other - without this the only thing that we have is whoredom/'polyamory' and dissatisfaction hedonism 

its just like life rly, you know, we start to come to terms that life will suck hard when we are early teens still, but the more you live it, the more you stay for the plot, to learn and experience more details and you might as well love it