going to buy one more bottle before the station closes. oh well.

[antagonizing_autist]

i clearly need to find a different way of coping and/or address the root cause of my a(ddi)ctions.

mrlooks' post made me think - i really am approaching the zone where accidental overdosing becomes a possibility

[bluerose]

do u ever stop and think holy shit i'm polluting the qualia of the human experience on earth

like the amount of pure shittiness ur body and mind carry is prolly bad enough to qualify for those euthanasia clinics in the netherlands or luxemburg

think abt how ur baseline is feeling unhealthy, ashamed, dirty, scared dat's like 99% of ur emotions thruout a day, with some very short periods of positive alcohol buzz (dat prolly lasts 15 minutes before it also returns to the itchy, nauseating, unhealthy baseline of feeling, but keep in mind dat in dat state ur too drunk to acknowledge da fact u don't feel any better than when ur sober, fuarkkkk utterly brutal)

[antagonizing_autist]

do u ever stop and think holy shit i'm polluting the qualia of the human experience on earth

like the amount of pure shittiness ur body and mind carry is prolly bad enough to qualify for those euthanasia clinics in the netherlands or luxemburg

think abt how ur baseline is feeling unhealthy, ashamed, dirty, scared dat's like 99% of ur emotions thruout a day, with some very short periods of positive alcohol buzz (dat prolly lasts 15 minutes before it also returns to the itchy, nauseating, unhealthy baseline of feeling, but keep in mind dat in dat state ur too drunk to acknowledge da fact u don't feel any better than when ur sober, fuarkkkk utterly brutal)

I stop and realize there are adults who use terms like qualia to sound smart and immediately start feeling 100x better about myself

[bluerose]

I stop and realize there are adults who use terms like qualia to sound smart and immediately start feeling 100x better about myself

not every post u make is a banger, and dat's ok, i still love u 

take care x

[machinelves]

u need to mix it up a bit otherwise gaba receptors etc gon a get friedso overdose is more possible yeh

[bluerose]

u need to mix it up a bit otherwise gaba receptors etc gon a get friedso overdose is more possible yeh

[B00X]

change in environment can help break an addiction

[bluerose]

did op die