12-04-2022, 12:52 AM
FIRST ONE
the first one was an ugly girl and i didnt even like her at all but someone made it seem like she liked me. well anyway i decided i might as well (stupid!) and i messaged her on social media. ofc i was rejected in a humiliating way.
she wasnt even white and was ugly with a big nose. luckily i was never publicly bullied for this probably because she didnt know who i was (lmao, she didnt even know i existed).
every now and again i think abiut that and i want to rip my hair out. i feel physucally sick thinking about it rn
SECOND ONE
second girl i asked out was hotter and i crushed on her for years. she had blonde hair and was small. i basically met her when i was out with 'friends' ('ntmaxing' so called... really just publiclally humiliating myself for a few years and making worst memories of my life. kill me now) and i did super autistic thing.... i went up to her and tried to get her attention and she was alone and i asked if she liked me and she said no with a disgusted look on her face and ran off. i wanted to kill myself so bad. ruined the whole night and then kept ruining every day for months. as if my life couldnt get any worse before that LOL!
idk which one is worse but the first is kinda worst to me because she didnt even know who i was and humiliated me online. she was like 'ummmm who are you?' FUUUUCK. the second was humiliation irl but she ran off and didnt say much. i dont think she told anyone because i never heard any more about it
i think about the second girl sometimes and not to be creepy or evil but i want to kill her for what she did to me. i dont actually want to kill her, it is just that i am helpless and enraged with my humiliation. she is brainless whore now and i see her social media pictures and i hate it
the first one was an ugly girl and i didnt even like her at all but someone made it seem like she liked me. well anyway i decided i might as well (stupid!) and i messaged her on social media. ofc i was rejected in a humiliating way.
she wasnt even white and was ugly with a big nose. luckily i was never publicly bullied for this probably because she didnt know who i was (lmao, she didnt even know i existed).
every now and again i think abiut that and i want to rip my hair out. i feel physucally sick thinking about it rn
SECOND ONE
second girl i asked out was hotter and i crushed on her for years. she had blonde hair and was small. i basically met her when i was out with 'friends' ('ntmaxing' so called... really just publiclally humiliating myself for a few years and making worst memories of my life. kill me now) and i did super autistic thing.... i went up to her and tried to get her attention and she was alone and i asked if she liked me and she said no with a disgusted look on her face and ran off. i wanted to kill myself so bad. ruined the whole night and then kept ruining every day for months. as if my life couldnt get any worse before that LOL!
idk which one is worse but the first is kinda worst to me because she didnt even know who i was and humiliated me online. she was like 'ummmm who are you?' FUUUUCK. the second was humiliation irl but she ran off and didnt say much. i dont think she told anyone because i never heard any more about it
i think about the second girl sometimes and not to be creepy or evil but i want to kill her for what she did to me. i dont actually want to kill her, it is just that i am helpless and enraged with my humiliation. she is brainless whore now and i see her social media pictures and i hate it
