guess how i feel from 1 to 10

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On top of everything yesterday and my drinking related misery, had a random dream about a huge wedding including all kinds of people from my life

Met a gorgeous girl who was are giggly and into me, just to realize she is using me as her fucking pet when her 6ft4 chad bf arrived

Had to spend the rest of the wedding watching him grope her behind a tree (it was in a medieval setting, lmfao) while i had to talk to oldcels and old friends i couldnt care less about

Holy shit

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Need bluerose to analyse this

Getting cucked by a knight would be brutal. I know in any mediaeval setting I'd be a jester or village idiot, which I think puts me outside of the hierarchy in the worst possible way

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to make it worse, it was one of those dreams you have right before waking up, so both the story and that surreal feeling sticks for a while

and it's been a shitty stormy night so i barely slept before that, all nauseated from alcohol

i feel so fucking bad i m not even considering picking up a bottle later. i genuinely havent felt this motivated to undegen myself in years

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I couldn't imagine being an alcoholic subhuman if I had things going for me

Alcoholism is for rape victims and hopeless losers

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I couldn't imagine being an alcoholic subhuman if I had things going for me

Alcoholism is for rape victims and hopeless losers

was gonna post the same thing - there are people who have never had anyone tell them they are beautiful or smart who are managing to have functional lives and families while having hard non-rewarding jobs, and i cant drop cringe bitchy habits of drinking in my room and popping jew pills and just finish one fucking paper. so defeating for the psyche. i like to think that's exactly the reason (me having been through the good stuff), but then it wouldnt bother me as much and i would just let myself go fully

yesterday i realized thats exactly why i m choosing this type of platforms (anonymous + not libtard censorship ridden + with the nigger hate being considered positive). whenever i attempted bitching about my problems irl, i dd risk getting punched in the face

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was gonna post the same thing - there are people who have never had anyone tell them they are beautiful or smart who are managing to have functional lives and families while having hard non-rewarding jobs, and i cant drop cringe bitchy habits of drinking in my room and popping jew pills and just finish one fucking paper. so defeating for the psyche. i like to think that's exactly the reason (me having been through the good stuff), but then it wouldnt bother me as much and i would just let myself go fully

yesterday i realized thats exactly why i m choosing this type of platforms (anonymous + not libtard censorship ridden + with the nigger hate being considered positive). whenever i attempted bitching about my problems irl, i dd risk getting punched in the face

Yeah tbh without your IQ you'd be fucked. Just another junkie passed out on the sidewalk

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Yeah tbh without your IQ you'd be fucked. Just another junkie passed out on the sidewalk

i m not adding or removing anything from the equation. the same would hold true if i had a gay alien skull or if i was 5ft6 or something, so no disagreement here

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or ethnic

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I'm just saying your lack of willpower is astounding

Realistically you're never gonna quit tbh. Alcohol is a part of you at this point

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I'm just saying your lack of willpower is astounding

Realistically you're never gonna quit tbh. Alcohol is a part of you at this point

i really wish i was one of those morons who experience a random meaningless events and it genuinely rewires their identity because some retarded delusion and permanent affect arise from it. and this "ability" isn't even correlated with intelligence from my experience, i know a couple of normal, functional, even smart guys who had that happen to them. the specific path is mostly obsession with god, though, which is just narcissism for peasants.

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i really wish i was one of those morons who experience a random meaningless events and it genuinely rewires their identity because some retarded delusion and permanent affect arise from it. and this "ability" isn't even correlated with intelligence from my experience, i know a couple of normal, functional, even smart guys who had that happen to them. the specific path is mostly obsession with god, though, which is just narcissism for peasants.

Its some weird combination of narcissism + identity crisis + latent schizophrenia 

This is seriously 98% of people me included tbh. They think the universe is sending them messages, it's just the society we have now is unprecedented so it manifests in weird ways

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Its some weird combination of narcissism + identity crisis + latent schizophrenia 

This is seriously 98% of people me included tbh. They think the universe is sending them messages, it's just the society we have now is unprecedented so it manifests in weird ways

yeah, well put.

one of the most typical triggers is someone surviving an accident and then concluding it's god who stepped up and intervened because he thinks they are that special. then you point at the simple question: "does that mean the god was just too lazy to save a bunch of other people who died in horrible tragedies today?" and they fucking blank out. they are technically usually not retards who couldnt see the logic of the question, but it's beyond their capacity to process it. it's exactly those 3 elements you listed, with 2 being represented the least, i think, because we are all, as humans, narcissists and latent schizos by definition