just got insanely energetycally/physically hurt

[MVP]

i came to smoke some to the room and i said "i am rey del mundo" (i am king of the world) (and i suspect this triggered/hurt that foid energetically because what happened then is, the foid said "c'mon mvp, say it, say somehing, say it, say something etc and i idiot have tried to really think hard what to say and said something but that overclocked my brain so hard that i felt terrible pain during and after the conversation



so what i learned is:



when someone wants a reaction from you, when someone tries to force you to say something dont give a reaction to them, or only say what u feel like or dont answer at all  or say no lust, dont try to come up with something to say when its hard, thats why i truly hate interview situations. avoid going over your limits, dont overwhelm yourself.

what i learned 2 is to avoid humans altogether irl since they can hurt you with words

that was truly a HUGE lesson for me, i also learned to never get out of my comfort zone


this might be interesting

@RuudVanNistelrooy


i took 2 metamizols now and the pain is getting less

[MVP]

as a general rule humans hurt me with talking, i lose large amounts of energy when someone is talking to me irl, worst are interview-like situations and being asked questions and being requested to say something etc, so better avoid it altogether.

[MVP]

its about knowing all my strengths and weakness and acting accordingly

[MVP]

i think i will sacrifice my talking skills, i will never be good at it, so i will not need that skill ever, fuck it.

im autistic, neurodiverse, its truly over. i realized talking is a major weakness of me, i am worse than 99% of people my age at talking.

i will avoid all talking situations.

i will research this topic online too.

[MVP]

always act if im the worst ever at talking. thats why im a permavirgin too. my speech-brain-centre is damaged

[MVP]

c act as if im the worst ever at talking

[Bojack]

Just open your mouth and speak words neeguh