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I'm becoming less normal (/showthread.php?tid=713)I'm becoming less normal - Honest - 18-04-2022
By "normal" I mean that I have a desire for normalcy/desiring to adhere to social-norms.
In 2019, I discovered lookism and also began to develop my social life (finding lookism isn't related to increasing social life, but lookism did enhance the desire to improve my external appearances). By 2020, I was meeting with friends every week, drinking, had bought normal clothes, had a normal haircut, and my general attitude to life was much more materialistic and conventional (although still relatively very non-NT in my private moments).
Compare this to pre-2019 when I kept my head shaved, wore autistic clothes, and was under the influence of extreme political ideology.
However, the continual lockdowns of 2020/2021 had perhaps acted to slow my change in character (this was likely unavoidable, regardless of external factors), and the closing of barbers meant that my hair grew longer, and my unconventional interests flourished.
In 2021, I returned to university, where I was disgusted at the unintelligence and dullness of my peers (subjectively speaking), which discouraged my attempts at making any efforts to socialise (the covid-measures of the first year meant that I only knew a couple of people). My unconventional interests continued to grow. In winter of 2021, I went to a nightclub, which was disgusting and allowed me to understand that I placed no value on seeking external validation, especially sexual, which rendered the continuation of the looksmaxing process and feigning normalcy pointless.
A couple of my friends have taken the same path as me, without conferring with each other. By that, I mean being disgusted by hook-up/drinking culture, developing more intellectual interests, interests in spirituality etc. Which is good, because it means I won't be a friendless loner for my decision.
I've attached a graph that shows my approximate BASELINE normalcy over time.
![[Image: Screenshot_2022-04-18_at_18.03.24.png]](https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/727296236767412254/965661642425778276/Screenshot_2022-04-18_at_18.03.24.png)
However, on a weekly/monthly basis, my "desire for normalcy" will dip and rise, so that at it's lowest I will have a desire to sell all my clothes and wear rags, and at its highest I will perhaps fantasise about having a nice car while wearing a nice outfit. It will impact how I display myself on a day to day basis.
But I think my normalcy is continuing to dip even more, and I hope it does. Hopefully I can break out of the indoctrination that I imposed upon myself regarding fashion and behaviour. It would be very liberating.
TL : DR
The long and short of it is that my desire for NT peaked in 2020, but now I care about it less and less. And I embrace that, because it's simply imposing a prison on yourself that forces you to seek external validation. Looksmaxing is pointless for me now.
RE: I'm becoming less normal - BossManBruiser88 - 18-04-2022
That's a lot of cope
RE: I'm becoming less normal - kathisterima - 18-04-2022
I've noticed. Are you content with it at least?
RE: I'm becoming less normal - Honest - 18-04-2022
(18-04-2022, 09:01 PM)kathisterima Wrote: I've noticed. Are you content with it at least?
I am very content with it
RE: I'm becoming less normal - Alexander - 18-04-2022
we all need to accept that we can't be normal and we should kill ourselves if possible to avoid the pain and meaningless of life
RE: I'm becoming less normal - Mr Looks - 18-04-2022
there is no point trying to become NT if you dont have fun doing NT activity
RE: I'm becoming less normal - An Infinity Of Little Hours - 18-04-2022
The number one sin about spirituality is proselytizing "the path"
Don't ever think you're better than someone just because you're interested in meditation and higher level ideas and they live to party
This is like cutting through spiritual materialism type shit
Most people are just getting by honestly in any way that they know how
True spiritual guru's are able to be out there in the world and give love to all people, not just those they see as 'smart' or 'eccentric' enough
Try to be kind even to the people you think are stupid. Everyone communicates in their own way and there's always a way to reach even stupid people with good ideas and concepts
RE: I'm becoming less normal - An Infinity Of Little Hours - 18-04-2022
This nigga has gone full MGTOW
RE: I'm becoming less normal - Honest - 18-04-2022
(18-04-2022, 10:20 PM)An Infinity Of Little Hours Wrote: The number one sin about spirituality is proselytizing "the path"
Don't ever think you're better than someone just because you're interested in meditation and higher level ideas and they live to party
True spiritual guru's are able to be out there in the world and give love to all people, not just those they see as 'smart' or 'eccentric' enough
Try to be kind even to the people you think are stupid. Everyone communicates in their own way and there's always a way to reach even stupid people with good ideas and concepts
I agree. Hating on people for living materialistic lives is really just envy/resentfulness/self-hatred.
It was either yesterday or two days ago when I realised that I have zero hatred for anyone on Earth. Although I don't really have love either (only rarely and for short periods when my brain chemistry shifts).
(18-04-2022, 10:21 PM)An Infinity Of Little Hours Wrote: This nigga has gone full MGTOW
I don't like that term, it grosses me out
RE: I'm becoming less normal - Alexander - 18-04-2022
mgtow are in denial. they think they can have good lives after being rejected by females. they need to give up
RE: I'm becoming less normal - Honest - 18-04-2022
Basically, when I'm more normal, it means that I'm more aware of the material reality going on around me. But when I'm "weirder", it's because I'm living in my head and stuff going on around me doesn't seem as real.
RE: I'm becoming less normal - Blau - 18-04-2022
Hey you are smart man! normies will never understand us.😔
RE: I'm becoming less normal - MVP - 18-04-2022
Lol a thinking after lookism you can be normal ever again
RE: I'm becoming less normal - Honest - 19-04-2022
(18-04-2022, 11:37 PM)MVP Wrote: Lol a thinking after lookism you can be normal ever again
I'm was far more normal after lookism than before.
RE: I'm becoming less normal - progeny - 19-04-2022
regression to the mean